I am now a thirty five year-old woman. I have three children, 4, 6, and 8. I parent, serve and laugh alongside my visionary husband and pastor. I teach ESL part-time. I volunteer at my kids' school. I am facilitating a small group for women called "Quieting a Noisy Soul." I am participating in a transformative women's Bible study titled "Believing God." I have a partner in Scripture memory. I am available to women to talk through issues and pray together. I help lead worship each Sunday, and teach 1st, 2nd and 3rd graders for Sunday school. I get out and meet moms for coffee each Wednesday night at Starbucks. I've rediscovered my love for great books, tennis and writing. I'm planning on kayak fishing more with my husband this year. I'm working out three times a week. I just got my braces off. I love sushi.
You know what? I am happy.
The remarkable thing about this, is that, I have had favorable life circumstances in the past, and been unable to access contentment in the midst of them. My mind was fixated upon what could or should be better, what might just happen next, how I'd better enjoy this now because it was too good to be true, and how I didn't deserve all this and had better feel guilty for having it.
The core of the Quieting the Noisy Soul study has been "My soul can rest, because God Himself is more than enough for me." It gives me the assurance, that when trials come, and they will, the bottom will hold, because of Who holds me. That assurance frees me to savor the now, while not shrinking from the future. Of course, I'll have to update this as we're tested. I'll keep you posted.
2 comments:
I think you are fabulous. I wish I were your down-the-street neighbor.
Well, I feel a little sheepish about writing this, but thanks. If we were just down the street, we could start a book club and play tennis regularly! Good to know we are both where God has us, though.
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